Tuesday, December 05, 2006

I got a feeling

Every now and then I get a certain feeling...like something big is going to happen someday. But it's weird because at the same time I get that feeling I also feel as if I'm as far away as possible from the big thing happening. I don't really get the feeling when I'm doing something, like working or creating something, but rather it's when I'm sitting in a car driving through the Virginia countryside, or walking down the street in Los Angeles, or lying in my bed waiting to fall asleep. Maybe it's at these times of calm where my deepest hopes and dreams and desires begin to bubble to the surface, trying to tell me to hold on and wait, that the day will come when the pieces of my puzzle will start to come together. Right now I'm the puzzle still in the box, being jumbled and tumbled around and mixed up. I have all these thoughts, ideas, things inside of me that I don't know what to do, but I feel they're important and need to find a way out. And when they do, that's when the puzzle pieces will start to line up and the big picture will begin to be seen. I don't really know what to do in the mean time, other than keep doing what I'm doing. But it is nice to know, or to at least have a feeling, that my life will mean something, that I am meant for something big. Someday.