Thursday, August 14, 2008

The classic "I'm getting older and going to contemplate about my life" blog post

Well, I'm 25 today, that means I should be having a quarter life crisis right...about...now. Nothing happened. Oh well, maybe next time. However, I think I had my quarter life crisis about a year and a half ago. I realized I wasn't doing anything with my life and didn't want to be stuck doing things I didn't want to do. So I proposed to my then-girlfriend (now wife) Sara and started applying to grad schools for a career change to be a photographer. I'm definitely happy with where my life is heading and am definitely very happy I married Sara.

I don't know, I was thinking about getting older and stuff and thinking "is this what I pictured my life to be like when I'm 25?" But then I realized I couldn't answer that question because I never really pictured what my life would be like at 25. I mean, I have dreams like owning a house and having kids, but I always just thought that stuff would happen in the future and I didn't need to think about when. Well, my future is here I guess.

It's not a bad thing, though. I feel I've accomplished a fair amount of things and have had some cool experiences, but sometimes I feel that I haven't done enough. I think what I need to do is really think about and probably write down everything I would like to do/accomplish/get out of life and every August 14 take a good look at and see what I've accomplished that year and what's left.

I tend to pile on dream after dream and get caught up in thinking about what I haven't done that I forget to live in the moment and enjoy what's happening now. Like being able to sit on the nice porch of my nice apartment on a gorgeous day in a city that's not Los Angeles and not hear car alarms go off every minute or sirens every two minutes.

I'm not really good about making goals for my life, let alone sticking to those goals, but I need to make making goals a goal. I don't want to have to keep asking myself every year if I'm where I thought I'd be at that age and either not have an answer, or have that answer be no. Take That quarter-life!

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