Monday, October 15, 2007

Will I die of drugs?

This is a question I sometimes ask myself. Why? Let me explain.

I have a theory, and in the wake of the recent alleged Luke Wilson suicide attempt, it seems to be, unfortunately, being proven right. The theory is that people who are really good at making others laugh are often very troubled on the inside. I haven't done a lot of research on this, but some examples that I think of are John Belushi and Chris Farley, who both died of drug overdoes. This troubledness doesn't have to end in death, but could be marked by depression or other craziness inside the head. The reason I think this is the case is because there needs to be balance, and if one is really funny, then there needs to be an equally strong force in the the other direction to keep things level. Therefore, as the degree of funnyness goes down, so does the degree of disturbedness. So does that mean that everyone who is funny are also deeply disturbed and going to die of drugs? Probably not. And does that mean that people who are deeply disturbed are also extremely humorous? Probably not either. It's just something that I've noticed and has been on my mind since I entered the world of comedy as an improv comedian not too long ago.
I mentioned this theory to a friend of mine who I met in Improv class, and he said, "Joe, you're going to die of drugs." And I said, "Am I funny enough to die of drugs?" He said yes. And coming from him that was a compliment, because he's pretty hilarious himself. But it got me thinking, am I so troubled inside that comedy helps balances my life out? And I think to a certain extent, yes. I don't do drugs, so I don't think dying from them is a possibility, but if I did starting doing them, I could see them taking over my life until the end, so it's a good thing I don't. I definitely need balance in my life, cuz when there isn't any, I get pretty crazy. So thank you comedy for keeping me sane, even if you might be the death of me.